Something I couldn't help but notice is...
I passed my driving test! I passed it (on the first attempt) ...in November. Quite old news now, I suppose, but it's still exciting.
I get little moments while rumbling along the road where I suddenly realise: ‘Huh!
I’m actually driving a car.’ (Both wonderful, and slightly terrifying at the same time).
When I was little(r) I'd always just assumed that I’d learn
to drive when I 'grew up'. I remember making plans with my sister about all the
things we’d do when we could drive (important things like: ‘go to the cinema pretty
much all the time’ and ‘go to the swimming pool whenever we feel like it’*). The
closer I got to seventeen, though, the harder it was to picture myself actually
driving a car. I’ve wrestled with quite debilitating anxiety since I was about
eleven – something that I’ve only very recently learned how to manage – and, up
until this past year, I just couldn’t visualise myself feeling well enough to drive.
So this is a major achievement in more ways than one! Something which seemed
near-impossible even just a year ago has now become a reality. Encouraging to realise
that change is possible, that wellness is possible (and that nipping along to
Morrisons to get a loaf of bread is also now possible).
Hooray!
(Oh, also. While on the subject of ‘that which once seemed
impossible’: I completed and submitted my dissertation last month (my dissertation on that most unfathomable of subjects: the humble sandwich). Now comes the long wait till June for the results.)
*alas, we’ve not yet done either of these (cinema trips or swimming). I’ve mostly just been
driving to work and to pick my brother up from school and whatnot. Being a full-time nurse (her) and in your honours year of university (me) doesn’t really
leave much time for doing much else. Plus, I don’t think we
factored in the whole ‘we’ll need to pay for the cinema tickets ourselves’
thing! One day soon though!
